Heart Check

So I've been putting off any personal reflection for a little while I’ve tried to get my thoughts together. I've been discouraged lately (nothing to do with either team that is here). In the classroom, termites took over while I was gone – eating through the concrete walls again, laying eggs which were in maggot form, and destroying my bulletin board. The mice have gotten more and more comfortable in my room and seem to use it as a bathroom daily. Mold is getting worse and paint continues to peel. It’s hard to come back and have to fix or clean the same things over and over again.

With the end of the school year approaching there is lots to be done - wrapping up of academics, assessments, reports, planning for next year, etc. Additionally, we’re interviewing for another teacher this week. This person will become the school administrator, as well as teacher, for the 2008-2009 school year, guiding the entire school. It’s a very important decision.

Overall, my spirit just feels tired. At nearly the half way point, I’m aware how much this has taken out of me…. and there’s still another year to go. In this place, I am continuing to seek God… trying to understand. But, I think I’m being taught about complete reliance. I know I’ve shared this quote before, but it seems to come up often…

“I am more fully learning to rely on the Lord because he is the only thing that is unchanging.”

Please keep me in your prayers.